balance

I'm a workaholic. I admit it, but I don' know how to fix it. I think it comes from working in a place where everyone is so good at their job. I feel like the only chance I have of even pretending to keep up is to just keep on working. Now that is been close to 3 years and expectations have already been set, I don't know how to stop. Supposedly admitting you have a problem is the first step. So, yes I have a problem and I'm ready to try and figure out how to balance work and other stuff. Here goes...

hiccups

Sometimes, my consciousness has little hiccups where, just for a moment, I realize that this really is my life. The rest of the time, it seems as if my life isn't real and that things are going to go back to the way they used to be. It feels like I'm just hanging out and making the best of it until they do. But really, I guess this is it. I wonder if I'll actually come around to the fact that what's happening now is the real part.

when?

I really want to go for a run right now. I can't. *sigh* I'm running out of all kinds of patience.